This is my space. I call it my "studio" in this house, but it has had other names in other buildings- my "den", "corner", "office" or "sanctuary". It was the last room I put together when we moved into this house because, for one thing, we piled all the boxes in it as we unpacked. But I had intended to save it for last anyway because to me it is the "dessert" of my home, the whipped cream on top of hot cocoa, the frosting on the cake. Designing this space was a ceremony. My favorite things were carefully unpacked and inspected one by one. Things that were given to me with love over many years. Things that I made and saved for and collected. Things that I use every day and things that have no use except to add beauty and color to the world. Things that I share only when I want to and only from my heart. Things I treasure because, collectively, they say, "This is who I am ". When I come into this space, my body relaxes, my mind quiets, and my spirit rejoices. I own this space. I am home.
Mindful awareness helps me to own my inner personal space. When I practice, whether in a formal sitting position or while doing every day tasks or taking a break from those same tasks, I practice coming home to myself. I feel the experience of being alive. I follow my breath, in and out, and feel my fingertips touching these keys as I type. I look around me and appreciate being able to see the colors in this room. I hear the rain outside and a truck going by and my dogs playing downstairs and feel thankful for all the wonderful sounds I can hear. I feel the warmth of the blanket that covers my legs against this chilly winter day. I notice the play of light and dark creating shadows and highlights on my favorite books and musical instruments. Right now there is only this moment, this breath, this thought. Just this. And it feels very good.
Yes, I have projects and bills and deadlines and responsibilities. I will get back to those. But, in this moment, it is not only the space that feels just right. Somehow my whole existence has more meaning when I slow everything down for a moment and enjoy what is here. This is a decision and a practice. I choose to remember that life is precious, that love and beauty are everywhere if I look for them, and that there is nothing I have to prove to anyone. Neale Donald Walsch captured the essence, the gift, and the offering of this decision. "Decide right now that, when you walk into a room, every room you walk into from now on will feel better, better to be in, because you are there.-Neale Donald Walsch. Yes, that decision requires practice to make it more than just words. But it is the savoring of this moment that provides the evidence that I am alive and all is well. that's where I get my energy for the action part. Sharing my space is the frosting on the cake.